Harder Truth
April 2
Sorry this page still looks so dull. I haven't touched this thing in months.
Major sadness got the better of me and I just stopped everything.Most days I even forgot to eat, and then I would have to squeeze my brain trying to remember if I remembered to eat when my family would ask.
Short version: Finally feeling better after much work and support, I went back to work and about 3 weeks ago I quit.
They were trying to destroy me and I had gone back to old habits of pushing myself beyond capacity.The health insurance, that's what kept me there until I realized they were the reason I even had to use it.
It was taking more than it was giving and once I quit I finally had space in my brain to think about other things.
NGL I am so much happier. Plus, I started the non-profit organization that I've been wanting to do for years but kept putting off and I couldn't think of a reason not to.
Now I'm pursuing things that I'm passionate about and making sure I remember that being kind to myself is still a noble pursuit.
I'll try to do better with the functionality.
Hard Truth
This is my second (third... but I cant find it), and don't worry I wont keep announcing each one.
This one in particular needed a follow up.
I did it again... It was at that moment I remebered what I did with #2 so here it is
"Taking the “L” and Moving Forward"
(I had this all written out and even timestamped. "date: 2024-11-12T14:21:23-06:00")
Well, here we are—post number two, and it’s been quite the journey just to get to this point.
I’ll admit, I got lost in the weeds again.
I started with a simple goal: write my second post. But then I thought, “I want the date there. And I want the posts to come out in perfect order.” From there, I quickly spiraled into thoughts like, “Maybe HTML isn’t the best way to go.”
So, off I went, exploring options for a static site generator to make my posts look just right. But guess what? I got so deep into figuring out how to structure the blog, I forgot the most important part: actually writing the post!
That’s when I had to pause and realize—I’m stuck fiddling around instead of putting words on the screen. I started this blog to share my thoughts, not just to spend hours tinkering with design. So, for this second post, I’m embracing the “L” for all the hours spent overthinking.
But no worries—the next post will be coming soon, with fewer distractions this time around.
Here’s to moving forward, even if it’s a little imperfect.
First Post: The Beginning of My Blog Journey
This is my very first post, and it's intentionally simple and unstyled. I want to document the process of building this blog from scratch, starting with the raw basics.
The reason I ended up on this tech journey was me wanting to make a blog to help me process my mother's illness and subsequent passing. Not with the intention to promote it but more to have the internet bear witness to my pain, screaming into the abyss.
I never actually started the blog, got caught up in the weeds because nothing was ever perfect. Grief. It's weird.
But now I'm starting with the imperfect. Writing about my grief but about other things too—my joy, stress, life, transitioning from planning to pursue a medical residency to a tech career still undefined.
Stay tuned as I enhance this site, adding features and documenting each step along the way.